it’s not the same anymore
i dont wanna leave the floor
where i’ve learned to ignore
everything surrounding me and my head
i just cannot leave my bed
oh give me a break
so i can find out what to do about it
eyes are full of slime
every time i start to cry
it crawls through my skin
latching on to my spine
don’t blame me
for anything that i do
cause i cant see a thing
and i know you can't too
don't blame me for anything that i do
cause i don't know how to ever leave my room
my eyes are warping to my computer screen
and i know none of this shit means a single thing
it’s just the same yesterday
and i know that there’s no change
in my thoughts or my ways
i just always do the same three things
i just gotta come clean
oh give me a break
so i can find out what you mean to me
hands start to shake
when i try and stay awake
as i type each word that
i will never say
don’t blame me
for anything that i do
cause all i wanna do
is hang around with you
hello. i can’t pick up my phone right now so please leave a message or something and i’ll get back to you thanks.
you really need to change your voicemail. what the fuck is that. you sound like a baby who doesn’t know how to speak. what’s wrong with you dude i’m so tired of your shit honestly… you know what, don’t even call me back...i’m-i’m sick of it. fuck you.
i think i'm lazy
i'm just sick
nothing else will make it stick
i'm walking aimless down the street
don’t look at me i feel so weak
i need another cigarette
im so dumb i wanna gag
do you know what it’s like
to feel like this and melt inside
maybe i should go offline
maybe i should go offline
maybe i should go o f f l i n e
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[i-i] i just wanna go offline
i just wanna go outside
i hate it there
fuck the sky
i just wanna feel alive
logging off the internet
i go back in
i go online
50 friends i’ll never see
i hate it here
don’t talk to me
i just wanna go online
i just wanna go outside
i hate it there
fuck the sky
i just wanna feel alive
logging off the internet
i go back out
i go online
50 friends i’ll never see
i hate it here
don’t talk to me
i just wanna go offline
i don’t wanna go outside
i hate it there
fuck the sky
i just wanna feel alive
do you know what it’s like
to feel like this and melt inside
maybe i should go offline
maybe i should go offline
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continuing from FIYH, this is blackpilled as all fuck; written and delivered with the raw candidness and self-mocking bitterness of a high-schoolers journal, and set to beats that are laser-focused to keep my distractable mind topped up on angry dopamine. A tight 21 minutes of weaponised disgust. Tom Colquhoun
Fans of Fire-Toolz, take note! The brutal new LP from STCLVR occupies the same sonic territory, with harsh electronics & pummeling beats. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 17, 2020