**the only thing i want to do is expose who i truly am to you but i feel self conscious because they tell me i’m all these terrible things but i’m not what is actually happening is that i love being here we might be alone. it just might be you and me. but that’s okay...because do you really need anyone else?** lock yourself inside your room don’t come out or else you’re doomed slam your head against the wall until it spills out through the halls you don’t know what you’re looking for another day of oozing tar that pins you down into your bed and drags you on until you’re dead now the room is piercing white in between your death and life they’ll get you if you stay in place so close your eyes and lose your face in the room is piercing white in between your death and life they’ll kill you if you stay in place so close your eyes and lose your face i can’t run and i don’t know why they’re catching up and i cannot hide a fist is clenching down my neck closing in please catch my breath i can’t run and i don’t know why they’re catching up and i cannot hide i can’t run and i don’t know why i can’t run and i don’t know why i can’t run and i don’t know why i can’t run and i don’t know why i cannot run and i don’t know why i cannot run and i don’t know why woke up again at 6pm it’s getting late i’m growing dead  my face looks strange i’m feeling weak i’m slipping out into the sink i try so hard but nothing works it’s all the same and nothing hurts it gets so numb it feels so bleak cutting in but nothing bleeds i don’t wanna close my eyes and see your skull crash into mine it’s getting closer glowing red gnashing teeth and full of dread    rip my skin and tear it back just look in, my flesh is black kill me now don’t compromise just pull me close and lock your eyes feeling shitty nothing’s new i thought i did but lost the clue my eyes are strained i see it all i’m just so scared to drop the ball i’m looking up the skies are red the static glows and starts to spread i look back down and find my feet trying my best not to bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed bleed waking up in real life it’s all a dream and they were right your friends are gone you want them back all the lies begin to crack there’s nothing you can do but wait and watch your life just drift away locked out again i lost the key no one’s left to come and get me i just wanna see the day where static skies will fade away and faceless names are all but gone cause they don’t know what’s going on a big mistake you fucked it up you never should’ve woken up your eyes are oozing glued and shut and everything just turns to dust maybe this is who i am  i’m spilling all the beans again there’s no more telling what to say my life can wait another day and now i know i’m back again these same four walls i’m growing in biting at me fall asleep so i can find another dream woke up again at 6pm it’s getting late i’m growing dead  my face looks strange i’m feeling weak i’m slipping out into the sink i try so hard but nothing works it’s all the same and nothing hurts it gets so numb it feels so bleak cutting in but nothing bleeds i don’t want to close my eyes and see your skull crash into mine it’s getting closer glowing red gnashing teeth and full of dread    rip my skin and tear it back just look in, my flesh is black kill me now don’t compromise just pull me close and lock your eyes

oh my god i don’t want to feel like this anymore i don’t want to feel like this anymore they think i’m just full of shit i know i could die like this something’s wrong and i can feel it i can feel it i can feel it in my head it crawls around telling me to hit the ground i’ll sleep ten more hours then i’ll finally be myself again no shit it didn’t work i’m still here it fucking hurts if i spend another day like this i think i’m gonna end it oh my god oh my god oh my god oh oh oh my god oh i’m being poisoned slowly through my veins my eyes are glowing heavy metal in my vomit down my chin and in the toilet i think this might be the end i’m losing feeling in my hands i cannot move i’m paralyzed my arms are stretched out to the skies oh fuck there’s no one left to save me from this pending death oh my god there’s no one left to save me from this pending death i just wanna kill everything in my path a soft answer turns away from the wrath i just i just wanna kill everything in my path they say a soft answer turns away from the wrath i don’t wanna go wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i don’t wanna go i just wanna get out of bed the words will align then i’ll transcend _ as you point to the back of my head as my body sinks to the start of the end just shoot i just i just wanna kill everything in my path they say a soft answer turns away from the wrath why can’t i just get myself out of bed i can’t yell anymore i’ve got nothing left

it’s not the same anymore i dont wanna leave the floor  where i’ve learned to ignore everything surrounding me and my head i just cannot leave my bed oh give me a break  so i can find out what to do about it eyes are full of slime every time i start to cry it crawls through my skin latching on to my spine don’t blame me  for anything that i do cause i cant see a thing and i know you can't too don't blame me for anything that i do cause i don't know how to ever leave my room my eyes are warping to my computer screen and i know none of this shit means a single thing it’s just the same yesterday and i know that there’s no change in my thoughts or my ways i just always do the same three things i just gotta come clean oh give me a break so i can find out what you mean to me hands start to shake when i try and stay awake as i type each word that i will never say don’t blame me  for anything that i do cause all i wanna do is hang around with you hello. i can’t pick up my phone right now so please leave a message or something and i’ll get back to you thanks. you really need to change your voicemail. what the fuck is that. you sound like a baby who doesn’t know how to speak. what’s wrong with you dude i’m so tired of your shit honestly… you know what, don’t even call me back...i’m-i’m sick of it. fuck you. i think i'm lazy i'm just sick nothing else will make it stick i'm walking aimless down the street don’t look at me i feel so weak i need another cigarette im so dumb i wanna gag do you know what it’s like to feel like this and melt inside maybe i should go offline maybe i should go offline maybe i should go o f f l i n e — [i-i] i just wanna go offline i just wanna go outside i hate it there fuck the sky i just wanna feel alive logging off the internet i go back in i go online 50 friends i’ll never see i hate it here don’t talk to me i just wanna go online i just wanna go outside i hate it there fuck the sky i just wanna feel alive logging off the internet i go back out i go online 50 friends i’ll never see i hate it here don’t talk to me i just wanna go offline i don’t wanna go outside i hate it there fuck the sky i just wanna feel alive do you know what it’s like to feel like this and melt inside maybe i should go offline maybe i should go offline

i’m so pissed i feel like shit every other day it gets like this i hate my guts i hate my life just give up you don’t have to tell me twice my blood is filled with rust and guts they scream and i feel so fucked up bloodstained lines braced for the fall kill me once just kill them all apple juice piss and roaches in the sink look at my knees and it’s dead meat bubblegum guts spilling down the drain dead in a ditch i found my fate i’m screaming out at the top of my lungs i’m so fucked oh i’m so wrong praying to god but i don’t believe shock kicking in i’m just dead meat not dead yet but not much stronger rusted limbs can’t last much longer take your pills wipe your knees something bad is guaranteed hard to walk and hurts to sit why’d it have to be like this? no one knows but i still ask why it’s all my fault and i wanna die die die die die die die die die die i’m still here i’m still alive the fear is gone and so’s my drive everything just feels so lame i just don’t know why i came i’m too scared to die i just wanna stay alive go online i know what i’m gonna find just hang on and stay the same end this song before i drift away you can tell me how to feel i wanna know what’s fake and real one more day of endless lag and i can feel it start to drag i don’t wanna feel like this every other day i see it miss and when it hits i feel so glad  but now it’s time to face the facts blood is filled with rust and guts they scream and i feel so fucked up bloodstained lines braced for the fall kill me once just kill them all apple juice piss and roaches in the sink i look at my knees and it’s dead meat bubblegum guts spilling down the drain dead in a ditch i found my fate i’m screaming out at the top of my lungs i’m so fucked oh i’m so wrong praying to god but i don’t believe shock kicking in i’m just dead meat

h-h-hold on. lemme try that again. e-e-eyes on the prize and i am feeling great i’m eating all the flies but still i’m thinking straight lightning strikes the ground and i’ll turn around twice don’t fall down until i roll the dice seventeen days wanna say what that means to me i’ve got a lot of things to come clean on what it means to be a human in the back can’t relax always seems to be alive i’m alive i’m alive can’t you simply see eyes on the prize and i am feeling g-g-great thirty more years then i will find my fate ashes to ashes until there’s nothing left no more friends cause i don’t want them back you don’t know what to do or what to say to me i’ve got a lot of time to rewind and fight my enemies but only in my head cause you know i can’t do anything i cannot talk i cannot think i cannot do a single thing eyes on the prize and i am feeling great gotta get my shit in line but i don’t wanna have to wait time stands still but soon it flies by everybody knows it no one wants to be that guy back when i was five years old it seemed to last forever i would stare up at the older kids and know that i would never get to be like that and get so tall and gather all that knowledge now i’m twenty years old and don’t know what to do in college eyes on the prize and i am feeling great eyes on the prize and i am feeling great eyes on the prize and i am feeling great eyes on the prize and i am feeling g-g-g i don’t even know what i wanna hear where’re you gonna be in the next five years? just shut up or just spit it out maybe i’ll fuck around and find out oh my god it’s not that bad whatever i said before has passed all i had to do was wait and now i know i’m feeling great eyes on the prize and i am feeling great eyes on the prize and i am feeling eyes on the prize and i am feeling g-g-g eyes on the prize and i am feeling g-g-great